Thursday, February 14, 2008

Happy Birthday Tua Laki.

Its the only time i'm free to blog. It is alwez wen its time to go to sleep. Its the only time i managed to get online and update my blog. You know why im alwez blogging this late? Coz' its the only time i have ideas to jot down plus i spent too much reading others blog which i found some of em interesting but there are some parts where the contents are juz BORING. So in tat case, i ended up updating my blog. Also included, my eyes r not sleepy yet plus i've been spending most of my morning sleeping tat i took my in-lieu just now. I was too sleepy to get up & i decided to continue sleeping and texted limah to inform tat i'm taking half-day. I went to office at 12:26pm. I'm being nice so i came early, i wouldn't want Alimah to feel lonely w/out me. Hehehe.. The feelings for today are just erm.. so~so. I have nothing special coming up but indeed i so can't wait to go Singapore. I've made several arrangements whereby i needed to plan my time & pack few days before flying off.

Singapore, 1st thing 1st... passport? shud i make a new one? my passport is out of blank pages. I dunno whether it will be accepted or not. So, before it got worse and i might not end up flying.. YESS! I shud make a new one. Gonna ask mom to do it for me. I really can't wait.. I just hope everything will be fine on that day. Its been awhile since my last trip to Singapore. I know its not gonna be long but for sure, its gonna be fun and enjoying with all the friends tat i love to death which will be coming along.

Ok, Singapore will be a week to go. Leave tat out first and think wats coming up for this week. My work is my 1st priority so i need get tat all are fully touched & checked, make sure every clients alerted to make payment etc. Next, get money prepared to bring to Singapore & pls help me, hopefully i dun go shopping tat much. My intention was just relaxing, meeting the relatives & enjoying at the same time. I'm sure gonna miss my bed, my family of corz, my syang for sure & my work even if its juz for 3 days. *huhuhu can't wait.*

Anyway, tonite i'm feeling a bit cranky & spoiled. Its been 10 days since i met him and i'm missing him like crayzie. His workload is driving me nuts tat i can't even meet him. ARGHHH! I wonder how come he can't spare tat lil' time just for me? is he meeting someone else? well heyy!! i should not think tat far. I spent almost everynite in the gym just to ease my mind and heal my broken heart. He said he misses me but how come he doesn't offer me to meet or something. I offered him but he ignored my text. NEVERMIND.... i didn't txt him much, i didn't misscall him at all. And.. there he was txting and miscalling me every few hours, AT LEAST! I told him if he doesn't care anymore and will be treating me lyk this til dunno when, might as well just leave me behind. Den he gets reli nice & txted me nice messages. DUH~ I'm not buying it! I want you not your sweet messages. He said he will be meeting me soon and i want an explaination for all this causes of ignorance. Doesn't he knows how much my heart bleeds longing for his touch? I miss the hugs, the touch, how he whispered to my ears saying dat he loves me so much & of course the smile tat meks my heart calm & very much happy.

See... i'm talking too much abt him. I reli2 miss him.I want you syang.. i miss u. In whatever consequences, i should meet him this week and still if he refused den dun blame me for not talking to him for a week or 2. I know i'm exaggerating but i'm sure u know how i MISSSSSESSSS him lyk crazie. I love him.

"Valuing a relationship is not merely done by seeing each other everyday. What counts is how much in our busy lives we remember each other." --Author Unknown

That opens my eyes... Thats true. What counts in a relationship is the trust, the feelings & the patience. Ok My, be patient! Ok i will... *smile* however, nothing can change my love for him. I am loving him more everyday. People used to phrase not to love someone so much tat it might hurts us in the end but..i put it the other way, loving someone so much might bleeds wen it turned out sour but yet its a wonderful experience. We will tend to be grateful & cherish every single moments spent with our loved ones. Its Valentine today (its past midnite) and i don't plan going anywhere. I don't celebrate it but of course its a special day for every lovers out there. Not forgetting today is Tua Laki's Birthday.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU... too bad his two daughters are not in Brunei to celebrate his birthday just like they used to every single year. Since he only have 3 daughters, he can only spend his time with the youngest more often when he misses his 2 daughters. Love his FAMILY so much!

Ok, i'm off to bed. toodles. to be continued....