The world slows down 
But my heart beats fast right now 
I know this is the part 
Where the end starts 

I can't take it any longer 
Thought that we were stronger 
All we do is linger 
Slipping through my fingers 
I don't wanna try now 
All that's left's goodbye to 
Find a way that I can tell you 
I hate this part right here 
I hate this part right here 
I just can't take your tears 
I hate this part right here

I'm in love with Pussycat Dolls's new single.

I reli like it and it has been playing on my mp3 repeating-ly.

I have nothing much to say.. all i can say, i misss HIM!!! I'm off to bed.

~ I'm listening to Pussycat Dolls - I Hate This Part Right Here ~ 

♥ Mellicious
11:36 PM

I am freaking cold rite now.. its 1:15am & I can't sleep. I just finished watching Desperate Housewives and now im tuning on channel 712. I came across the heartbreaking news of Jennifer Hudson's family. Her mother and brother was found dead earlier & now.. her nephew. How could some people be so cruel for killing a seven years old kid? Kesian banar. Her nephew has disappeared last 3 days & they were hoping for him to be returned but sadly, he was dead instead. A 7 years old kid?? Oh c'mon, HOW COULD SOME PEOPLE KILL SUCH AN INNOCENT BOY?! I couldn't imagine the fear he was bearing when he was abducted. He must be reli scared and cried. *Sigh...

I watched the news on E! just now. So, here i am still not sleepy and freaking coldddddd. I reli have nothing much to update. Erm, i miss him. Yes, you know who-u-are.. *Double Sigh... as what i usually says to my bestfriends "ehhh jangantah dipikirkan.." yes, malasku pikirkan. Anyway, when i was at work juz now.. Osaka asked me what will i do if i earn $800 million.. and i answered, i would build my dream house, buy my dream car, pamper myself with making my wishes comes true. YES, FOR SURE! I don't care if some of you might think that i'm selfish but hey, what would you do if you reli earn that multi-million dollars? OMG! I can't imagine how my life would be with $800 million dollars! Once everything achieved, my families won't be forgotten coz' they comes 1st in my life. I won't pamper them much coz' seriously, money can blind you when you're not careful. No matter how much you earn, life means nothing without happiness & love. Whatever makes my family happy, I will be happy too. I know Osaka & I were carried away with dreams & fantasies but wouldn't you want it to be reality in life? OHHHH I WISH! But dreaming is cheap, we need to work hard to earn a million.

I thought about it & how i wish it can be true someday, somehow. Hahaha.. I'm not expecting much but dreaming is the best way to feel that fantasies are real. Oh, im watching Forbes entertainment news right now and its about Top 20 women celebrities. WOAH, siuk! I can only dream but i'm still too far to reach that one dream that I don't know if i can reach someday, somehow. MILLIONAIRES? BILLIONAIRES? "jangan tamak, syukur dengan apa ada nya" hehehe.. yes i'm dedicating that line for myself. I should keep that in mind. If it does comes true, syukur kepada Ilahi. OK, i might get too over the board, i gez i shud stop here. Toodles.

♥ Mellicious
1:12 AM

Sigh.. awu makan saja ku eh. Yes, I was supposed to at least cut down on some carbs & less sugar coz' i think im gaining like shiznitt!!! I just can't resist the oh-so-lip-smacking foods served during my visit to SyiQen's crib. She invited my bestfriends & I for her small gathering open house. I thought she invited some other people for her open house.. rupanya kami saja, kesian jua tu. THANKSS SYIQS!!!! I tell u people... the foods she cooked was ohhhhh NYAMANLICIOUS, banar... inda ku menipu. My Saturday nite was mostly spent chilling at her place. It was cold thru out the nite. Siukk jua ah malam di Kg. Ayer. I was with my two bestfriends aDeQ & Wenzy. Too bad Jessie & Licia can't come with us. Even if it was just the few of us but to be frank, I had a great time. We left her place at around 12ish & went cruising around at Gdg & Qlap after that. Nothing special, macam biasa! Overall, My girls & I enjoyed our time. Its alwez been fun mingling with old friends. So yeah, I'd love to pay a visit to her place again anytime soon with my girls of course. I'm loving it big time.. i know some people might call it 'sekadar' or 'sakai' but I SUKA!

Im getting tired alredi, im off to bed. x0x0

♥ Mellicious
10:18 PM

So i managed to upload the pictures during my raya which also means I just finished resizing and editing the pictures. During my raya holidays, i didn't feel like occupying myself infront of the computer to edit the pictures coz' i didn't want to waste the holidays I had. Well, i'm gonna be working overtime probably until end of this month. I will be continuing my unfinished work. Nothing much happened at work today. After work ard 5pm..NaKaNishi, Archiekinz703 & I went to Qlap to check out the piano lesson at Muzette. We were entertained by the pianist when she played one song for us. NaKaNisHi & I got very interested to join in the club. It has been my interest since long time ago that i wanted to learn playing piano & this time im gonna make it happen, InsyaAllah. SO yeah, i'm gonna learn the codes & surely will enjoy it.

Anyway, I decided to open my shop next friday. I can't wait any longer coz' paying the rent sometimes kills me. If i could've save it, i wud've already enjoy my money. But i can't give up now since i have been spending too much on the shop. I won't be telling much about it tho' but i'm happy that I'm just gonna open it soon. I just hope my worker can handle it while i'm working. I will be visiting the shop everyday after work coz' its not far from my house. I will be promoting it once i get done with the flyers, atupun if i rajin. Hehehe.. Or mebe i will just recommend it to some of my friends so for a start its gonna be tough and i hafto deal with it. I'm still learning about the business and my mom will help me. Syukur Alhamdulillah my mom will help me cope with this business. Even if she's busy with her current business but as always.. a loving mother will always help her child in everything.

I love my family and I won't give up on this business that I'm going to run. As what mom always told me, its never easy at first but we just hafto be strong and patience dealing with any business. I hope i can help my mom in return when this business succeed. My family are the most valuable gifts from Allah and everything that i will earn i hope i can help them to fulfil their desire or dreams in the future. What i always hope for is for my younger siblings to be successful in life no matter in their studies or work. I love them with all my heart & I hope they know that i'm willing to sacrifice my hopes to study just to give them the opportunity to fulfil their dreams. I may not be successful in studying but I know i can be successful if i work hard.

OK, enuff with all that emotional feelings. HAR HAR HAR. Well, today.. im missing someone. Someone who i wish can be here for me whenever i need him. Someone who i've been longing to tell me how much he loves me. I miss everything about him. I don't know why i miss him.. I reli do miss him. I really wanted to see him but im scared. Im scared he might say things that i dont want to hear. Im scared he might thinks that i needed him only when Im feeling down. I wanted to call him but again.. im scared. I miss him today.. and yesterday and... maybe tomorrow. I want him but im scared of what he might think of me. Does he still loves me? or.. he hates me? I miss you ♥712.

I didnt lie when i said i miss you.. I didnt lie when i said i still do love you.. I didnt lie when i said i wanted you to be with me at that moment, i want you to be around me when i needed you. Im sorry for the things ive said that might hurt you. I love you, i still do. I hope you'll forgive me. I miss you ♥712..

I'll end here before i get too emotional. Im in the state of missing someone so much. I wish you feel the same for me. Its never too late to tell that u still do.. its hurts you even more if you hide your feelings from me.
You know how much i ♥ you PaNDaQu.

♥ Mellicious
11:07 PM

As i promised, i was gonna post the pictures from Raya but due to overload work & laziness.. i only managed to upload it today. Hehehe... These two pictures taken during Malik & G.Jayz open house were taken last Saturday the 11th. I went raya-ing with my colleagues & brother. On the same day, i had my 2nd open house celebration especially just for my friends. I had a great time.... INDEED! I'm just too speechless to express the excitements i had!

However, this pictures below were taken at my youngest brother's fren open house. I basically had nowhere to go & my brother asked me to accompany him. Without any hesitation, i agreed to join + i was DAMN BORED & was still in my raya mood.

I really have nothing much to say and I'm kinda tired rite now. I just came back from Abg Saed's house awhile ago. Haven't got enuff sleep yet & I still have more plans for tomorrow. Luckily i'm still on holiday til' Monday. Dun make me think about work.. I wanna rest my mind from work. Its not that im hating it but im just starting to love my holidays! Ok toodles, im off to bed. *sleepy*

♥ Mellicious
3:07 AM

HAHA! My leave starts today.. but ill be back to work by Tuesday... I shud've ask for a week... menyesal ku jua. OH WELL, forget it! I'm gonna use my holiday wisely by keeping myself busy with many things. The best thing is... I CAN SLEEP LATE AND WAKE UP WHENEVER I WANT! Banar..... Dats the most best moment i like whenever its holiday. So i spent my day by waking up around 10am. Had shower roughly 30mins after that. Fetched Alimah around 12ish den off to Amsarra @ Qlap. Had buffet for lunch & as usual, they served great foods! Kenyang eh.. Alhamdulillah. Then, i drove off to Giant to survey some 'Kain'. As much as i wanted to resist the much temptation, i just couldn't able to hold on & hide my desire. I ended up buying two 'kains'. Bini2 tah banar.... as what most of my guy friends usually said. HAHA..canatah jua.. lawa banar.. karang abis tia.. shashapon!

Next visit, we decided to check out some new DVDs at Komunis Gadong. I ended buying 7 DVDs movie.. and I hope this DVDs can keep me occupied when I'll get reli bored at home. So, nothing much reli happened today. I went beraya-ing with my siblings and bestfriend Licia just now. We managed to visit only three houses & that is becoz' we were invited to an open house of theirs. I stayed a bit longer until midnite at my bestfriend Kitty's house. How i wish, the other bestfriends were there too coz' we had a lot of things to talk about. Anyway, my parents sleptover at Miri & I need to wake up early tomorrow to help out at the canteen. I'm gonna bring my brothers & bestfriend licia to help out. And in the afternoon, I need to attend our Office Raya Celebration. I'll be busy tomorrow by continuing going out after Isya' prayers or Maghrib prayers to visit some friends again. See i told you, i haven't got enough of Raya. I'm still in the mood of Raya baby!!! Woohooo.. exaggerating much? HAHA i know..! I'm of to bed now, thanks for reading my boring post y'all. HEhehe..

♥ Mellicious
1:08 AM

I decided to put on hiatus temporarily changing the layout. I have been editting some of the codings and this is how it turned out. I guess im pretty much satisfied with what i did. I haven't reli got the urge to change the layout but somehow i was bored & decided to change the layout. Its alredi the 13th Days of Raya & I'm still feeling the Raya Mood. My Boss and Khairil is on leave until next week so i was left alone with piles of work! *Sigh* I was nervous tho' having to handle everything on my own. But came to think of it, i guess its a challenge for me whether i could handle it alone or not. First day w/out them is not bad at all.. So far, So good ALHAMDULILLAH... *wish me luck on everything* Hopefully everything goes smoothly til' they'll be back next week. I'll be starting taking my leave this friday which means I have to get all done by Friday. Aduhh.. banyak banar kan d buat.. tolong ku! =(

It seems that towards the end, they have been lots of open houses & just now we went to Ka Bibie's new house @ Tasek Meradun for lunch. I was with Nasz, Ka Hjh Jul, Danial & Amalul. I didnt manage to take pictures coz' i forgot to bring my camera along. Cuaiii~ Hehehe.. My colleagues have been asking pictures from me which i havent posted it yet. Sorry guys.. busy ku yo! Kamu pun tau kalie ah.. well, i have been busy since Morning & got lots to do. I was supposed to stay for overtime but then Syiqen kidnapped me from office after 5pm. Her intention was to submit her CV only. Since she was bored to death *hehehe* she asked if i wanted to hangout with her for awhile. Ok.. since its been awhile, i decided to leave my work & went out with her. We fetched Licia then crashed to DeQsKie's house & surprised her. The four of us went out & had dinner at Au Lait for the first time ever. Yes its the 1st time ever the 3 of us went out with SyiQen.

SyiQen is our friend back in secondary school. We have been classmates since Form 1 til' 3 but never got reli close or hangout elsewhere. We had a great time chilling til' 9pm. Bangas rasaku.. pakai uniform lagi *Hehehe* After that, she sent us home and she offered to go visiting some friends this Saturday. I'm looking forward for this weekend since i will probably be fully occupied the whole day all by my friends. =) Adding to that, did i mention we will be having Raya Office celebration this Saturday? Yipeee...! Another fun celebration... makan lagi~ ADUH! Hehe....

Here are some of the pictures taken during my Raya. It has been long overdue kept in my laptop. HAHA! I'm just gonna post some coz' it might take F O R E V E R to post all....

thats all for tonite ya'll...

♥ Mellicious
12:32 AM

Due to few demands from friends, i decided to take the opportunity to update my blog since im not sleepie yet even if its alredi 2:12am for god's sake! I have been very busy visiting people, entertaining some relatives or friends that came over to my place for Raya. I haven't been visiting my friends or colleagues.

Back to my raya stories, we had raya's open house last Sunday. I was awaken by my dad around 10ish asking me to entertain the guests that came. It took me hours to get ready as that I was taking too much time curling my hair. When i went down to check on the guests that came, i was surprised to see our living rooms were packed with lots of friends, relatives, others that came by. Seriously, there were nonstop guests since mid-noon and we siblings & my parents hafto keep re-filling the foods. It goes on until' midnite. Thanks to G helmy, Max, Dex, Yusran, Malik & G Saed that came by to my house. I had fun and was reli tired after that. I haven't invite any of my friends for the next open house yet, im still choosing which day. I've planned to invite them over this weekends but at the same time, i received quite numerous of friends dat invited me to their open house so i changed my mind. I should be hosting another raya open house & the date is still unsure yet.

By next week, my uncle will be inviting us to his raya open house & again I hafto rearrange the day. I wanted it to be during weekends coz' I wanted my friends to stay over at my place til' midnite. I like having lots of companion and keeping them entertained the whole time they are at my place. Another postpone decision.. hmmm! Oh yeah, we started back to work yesterday & I was still in Raya Mood. I was not reli concentrating much doing my work coz' I was still tired. 2 of my colleagues are still on holiday and mine will starts on the 17th, YIPEEEEEEE! But on that day, i have planned what i should be doing 1st.

HAHA! Yes i planned to rest.. what i meant, i wanted to take the leisure time waking up whenever i want, cleaning my shop, go to Nini's house & kidnap my lil' couzies (HAR HAR HAR, as if!) , probably go to the dentist etc. Lots too plan in so little time. EVerything is still under plan, not sure if i can accomplish it during my 4 days leave. Despite being tired, I went for dance class yesterday with my cousin fara & sis girl. We went for Hip Hop class & i enjoyed it. While most people were out for Raya, we instead went for dance class. HAHA! After dance class, we chill @ cafe somewhere in Qlap, i dun remember the name while waiting for Deelah. We went home around 10ish.

Lazy.. yes lazy.. i was too tired & very sleepy. How i wish i can go home just as i wish & back to sleep.. DREAM ON! I was very sleepy and too lazy to do my work. I'm very lazy lately and I dunno y. Alhamdulillah I finished my report !! I went for lunch at 1:30pm with G Saed, Danial, Alimah & Siti. Nuthin much reli happened @ work. It was quiet the whole afternoon and it made me feel even more sleepy. I went home ard 5ish & fallen to sleep. My sister woke me up & told me dat my parents are bringing us out for Raya. We managed to visit 5 houses just now & last destination was Abg Jidi's place. We stayed until' almost 1:30am. Al-Maklum MIB (Meeting Inda Beranti) LOL! I did mention dat I'm gonna post some pictures that i took during Raya but somehow im just too lazy to upload. I haven't reli got enuff time to post some pics coz' i was usually online late at nite. After i finished my story, i usually get very lazy to post pictures. No matter what, I will post the pictures taken during my Raya but not now coz' I'm alredi SLEEPY zzZzZZz!! Mebe when i have more time, I will post the pictures yeah? Sorry guys, i will post don't worry. Oh yes i'm still in Raya Mood & I'm gonna enjoy the most joyous festival of the year. Alrite then, im off to bed.

♥ Mellicious
2:10 AM

Yes i am very excited everytime when it comes to Raya. It is becoz' it is the only time i get to visit my relatives once a year. Yes its true "ONCE A YEAR" that is for my relatives from my dad's side. I don't regularly visit cousins staying in Tutong and I'm not very close with them. I get to visit them every once a year. Unlike my mom's siblings of corz, we get to meet quite often. Its another year I got the chance to celebrate Raya, Alhamdulillah... semoga panjang umur! I was reli happy when we were announced that our Raya will falls on Thursday 2nd Oct'08. We got to fast another day and I still got time to do some unfinished errands.

I slept reli late as late as 4am the nite before Raya and I skipped Sembahyang Raya.. my bad! Anyhoo, my brother woke me up around 10ish and we left home at around 12ish. First off, we went to NiNi's Madang house ( my mom's side ) and the couzies were alredi there except the 6999's family and 934's family. The 934's family just left coz' they still need to visit other relatives from the other sides. Again this year, we celebrated Raya without my beloved couzie Emma who is back in UK. But I hope she's all good back in UK and enjoy her Raya as we are in Brunei. Of corz, it feels different celebrating without the family but hopefully u feel as if u were home when you're there. We miss you a lot! First day, we didn't get to take a lot of pichas coz' we were somehow busy mingling with the couzies. Also, its been 3 years Raya, we celebrated our Raya w/out our Grandpa ( mom's side ) & NO! we didn't forget about him. Infact, we went to Kubur the next day with all the couzies, aunts & uncles. My first day Raya was not bad at all except that my eldest sister and Brother Akmal didnt get to Raya-ing with the family due to some reason. So yeah , we managed to visit few relatives in Tutong before we headed of to Nini Lumapas. Met the 934's family at Nini Lumapas and we ended the nite visiting back to Nini Madang's house to celebrate Syaza's B'day. It was one exhausted nite and we went home around 2ish. Managed to force myself to take shower before sleeping & i ended sleeping at around 4ish eventho' i complained that i was too tired and sleepie. INSOMNIA strikes me and dats the reason i can't sleep, fuluiiii!

Despite the tiring exhausted nite, I had another sleepless nite whereby I was awaken by my brother at around 8ish. Awal kalie ah......!! We woke up early coz' we promised to go to Kubur @ around 9ish. Everyone was already there wen we arrived. After Kubur, we went to Yayasan & Had our lunch while the guys went for Friday prayers. Arrived home at around 2ish and It was one quiet afternoon. Around 3ish, there were relatives from Limbang & Miri who visited us & I was too shy to go down to mingle with them. I don't know why! While waiting for them to leave, i fell asleep while watching TV. I was supposed to go to Saloon to get my hair done and I did after that. Took my shower when i reached then headed off to Ustaz Nasruni's house with the family. Then went straight to Muara & met up with the whole family eg. aunties, uncles & cousins. Visited the couzies from Muara & we took a lot of pictures. I'm gonna post a bit of the pictures taken during my second day of Raya. I had a reli exhausting nite, yet fun!

Im getting sleepy and its alredi 2ish am rite now.. ill just post the pix tomorrow then. To my couzie Emma, Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir & Batin. Miss you babe! &...............

♥ Mellicious
12:14 PM