Friday, June 20, 2008
Confused
Where is the feelings that i once felt for him? Sigh....
Sometimes I wonder where does our relationship stands?
Sometimes I wonder why does these feelings changed?
Sometimes I wonder how much do I reli want him or love him?
Sometimes I wonder what do i reli feel for him?
I'm so confused....... *Deep sigh*
But,
There are times when I like him,
There are times when I love him,
There are times when I need him,
There are times when I want him,
and there are times when I just don't need him at all......
I just think that sometimes i'm so stupid for having these uncertain feelings. Am i bad ?! Well.. its not the end yet. I know I do still have that kinda feelings for him and I'm gonna work it out. I don't want to let him know what I am feeling for him rite now. It hurts me for having this uncertain feelings. I got used to not being text anymore, I got used to not being called anymore, I got used to not meeting each other that often, I got used to not hearing those 3 beautiful words and I got used to not being kissed or hugged. But when he was there infront of me doing all those things that I've got used to "not-happening-anymore", I get very upset deep inside & crushed coz' why after these feelings start fading away, he's alwez there to reach up for me?? I'm not sad becoz' I dun have that strong kinda feelings for him but I'm just sad not having that strong feelings for him. You get it?!
Its reli frustrating you know.... Up til' now, I'm still not sure what made our r'ship ruined for the past month. I wanted to ask but I just don't want to bring up the topic coz' I know it mite ruin our time spent together. I'm feeling very dramatic rite now.. I am NOT HAPPY! NOT HAPPY with this situation, not happy with these uncertain feelings, not happy when things turn out sour. I'm even more careful this time for not wanting to ruin the r'ship again. But one thing i know, "I MISS HIM".
OH anyway, its late... I'm off to bed. *sigh sigh sigh*
♥ Mellicious
12:17 AM
Monday, June 16, 2008
I had fun, FINALLY!
&& Here it goes again.....
I'm getting tired alredi but I'm willing to take a few mins of my time updating my stories. So guys and gals, I had a very exciting weekend (FINALLY!) I went to Pantai Seri Kenangan last Sunday with my siblings, friends & cousins. We had fun and certainly enjoying our time. We had barbecue and had some few games just for fun. We even rented the four-wheel bike and it was fun fun fun. There were many ppl around and its my first time ever to Pantai Seri Kenangan Beach@ Tutong. I'm glad everyone had fun...I arrived @ Tutong around 3pm and my sisters & cousins were alredi there setting up the barbecue set. All in all, it was fun having my cousins around. My cousin Emma will be starting her attachment by end of this month and I'm sure she'll be very busy til' she's back to UK. I can only spend the weekend with my cousins Fara & Emma since I'm very busy myself. But.. I will try to spend more time with my cousins since they're back. If i'm not mistaken Fara won't be long here coz' she needs to be back to Singapore mebe around July or was it this month itself? I'm not so sure... Gonna ask her then. So, here r some random pics i took during our outings,
"Teams" was formed for the Games. 3 person in a group !! ROAR!!
xx Random pics of My Family & I xx
MUMMY WRAPPED is one of the GAMES we played. LOL. It was funny at first.... HAHAHA!
There were still some pics that I'm just too layzee to post. So yeah, we stopped by @ Granny's place and bought him cake. He seems to be very happy that we came & willing to strike a pose for us before he cut his cake. I was happy to see him too coz' I seldom visit Nene @ Tutong. I was with my siblings and we didn't stay long since it was alredi late. On the way home, we dropped by at a cakehouse to buy cake for Daddy since its Fathers Day. Surprised him the cake and we siblings greeted him. I was very tired laznite.. I didn't even have enuff sleep coz' Adam was crying til' 4am searching for his Mummy. I was annoyed and I had difficulties getting back to sleep. I woke up @ around 7am and how i wish i can just get back to sleep and forget about work. I was feeling very tired the whole day until' now. I know its alredi late by now and I should be sleeping by now to compensate the lackness of sleep yesterday. Nuthin much happened @ work and as usual, ITS BORING WHEN THERE's NOT MUCH CUSTOMERS! I miss my baby and he was happy dat he told me the car was reserved for him and that he needs to confirm by this week. I hope his application will be approved so i can go cruise with him anytime i want. Hehehe...
I was supposed to get my six sigma project done by today but instead i spent my time playing games. I'm very tired alredi and for sure i neeeeed some sleep. I was thinking to take MC tomorrow but then it doesn't worth it since i know my boss will be calling anyhow. Oh yeah, I had made several plans for this month and i hope i can manage it well. Btw, I went to WyWy supa save yesterday and saw this catchy LG phone which makes me wanna buy it so bad. URRGGHH! Sometimes i just think i'm too greedy for wanting to have all that i wanted! But thats what HUMAN do, they desire, they admire and they would love to own/have what they wanted, dreams or even admired. As for me, I'm gonna get my hands on that LG phone but i'm just not sure when. My money still needs to be used for necessary purposes since i still have lots to settle down. I need to service my car, change the tyre, pay my bills, pay rents and so on. I don't want to stress myself coz' i know its normal for having debts. BUT bare in mind, my bills are paid monthly and does not even have the intention to even miss paying. NO WAY! Its 0100hrs & I gotta chow now. And yeah... here are the pix that i've editted specially for my bestfriends and I'M MISSING THEM HEAPS!!!!
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Labels: Fathers Day, Picnic
♥ Mellicious
11:37 PM
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Lamers
Its 0300hrs rite now and I'm still here @ Red Canopy Qlap. It has been my favourite spot for hangouts. I've been coming here regularly and I enjoyed the place. The waitresses & waiters are all friendly to me. We even made it a place like HOME. My cousins are alredi fallen to sleep and i gez i shud be going soon.. Abg Saed is still concentrating on FACEBOOK and was checking out some pictures he juz took! HAHAHA... I know he's gonna post it on FACEBOOK.
Ohhh.... anyway,
Today has been a very TIRING day but yet i still managed to make the night younger and hanged out til' dawn. Is anyone out there who never sleep for 48 hrs and still managed to stay hyper??!! If anyone of you knows, raise up ur hands !!! I don't think i can do that. I need some sleep to keep me energetic and hyper! IT was 0300hrs when i started typing the 1st half of this entry. Abg Saed needed to leave soon and so i juz put my laptop on sleepy mode and to continue this entry at home. So here i am HOME SWEET HOME! Arrived home at 0317hrs. Errks... ITS LATE... VERY!!!
The reason i'm extremely xhausted & tired was..........
I had one full day working til' nite. At 1st, I came late to work.
AS USUAL, 3 mins
LATE! *toinkssss* I know I shud've came a bit early but then i was spending too much quality time fixing my 'tudong'. I didn't realize that I was going to be late. Work finished at 12pm & I spent almost 2 hrs extra to get done with my work. Went to Sales Department and ask about their progress. At around 2pm, sent Ka Jah to The Mall while i had my lunch @ Red Canopy that afternoon. I was supposed to attend my family gathering for Father's Day but unfortunately I couldn't make it due to other possible reason. I know i shud've joined them but I just can't.... BANYAK KAJA AH.... I can't leave my work and spend some leisure time without thinking about the undone work. I spent the day til' 10pm+ @ The Mall helping out the Sales Team dealing with their work. Supervised the new recruit clerk in doing his work. It was fun talking to him too since he's kinda FUNNEH to me.
We were very TIRED when we left the Building. Oh GOSH.. I can feel how my body aches and was HUNGRRYYY throughout the NIGHT! After sending Ka Jah to the car park, I went straight to home. After taking a bath, I went out to send my Baby's ciggy. After that headed to Red Canopy and chill till 0300hrs+ I saw Hermy when i was on the way to Qlap. Ermm.. nuthin much about him. Oh yeah.. I enjoyed my time during the roadshow. I'm now feeling very tired. VERY!! Sleepy alredi... continue tomorrow... MWAHS.
♥ Mellicious
1:44 AM
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Lack of Update
Have been busy as always for the past three days. Sorry for the lack updates my readers. HA HA HA. Macam banyak saja.. well i found it interesting for some readers who actually dropped by and read my blog. And of corz.. most of em are my frens i gez. *smile* I had my accounting exam last Tuesday and I wasn't reli confident AGAIN! I am alwez bad at accounting and i wonder how did i get a job in a finance institution huh? HAHAHA I'm just LUCKY i gez... Background music "SHe's so LUCKY, She's a STAR but SHe cry cry cry in the lonely nite THINKING" wahhh.. terlebih sudah~ HAHAHA.. So anyway, the exam lasted for 3 hours and there i was in a big hall sitting feeling cold & sleepy! Damn!!! Most of the time i kept falling to sleep... lucky i didn't SNORE! Hahaha.. or else i'll be famous for sleeping in the exam hall + SNORING!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHA.. i couldn't imagine how embarass will i be! ERKSs.... i hope it'll never happen to me. I shud've took my leave on that day since i saw some of my friends were enjoying themselves after leaving the exam hall. But... i was being responsible coz' i still got pending work to be done. I'm a WORKAHOLIC person for sure~
So yesterday i went out with Jessie. We were bored so we decided to go out for a Drink. She was as usual not reli in the mood for some thrill and excitements since she was all quiet that nite. She was having relationship crisis and i reli dun have any idea how to cheer her up. We stayed up til' nearly midnite and headed home nearly 1am. I was very tired that i've fallen to sleep for few mins when i was infront of my laptop. I was trying to update my blog but my eyes weren't being friendly to me that nite so i decided to sleep. Oh NO! My eyes are being slow again.. and i think i'm sleepy.
I'm feeling kinda sleepy rite now. I juz came back hours ago from red canopy @ qlap. I was with Nasz & Abg Saed. It has always been fun with them eventho' there's nuthin much happening. Oh yeah..I need to gather some informations and do some research for our work project. It was very interesting when my team leader showed me the tasks we need to get done with before end of this month. OH NO ANOTHER BUSY MONTH! But anything about work , I'll try not to neglect it. I just love to do work work work but there are times when i get tired and bored OF CORZ!!! Hehehe.. Oh yeah did i tell you that i'm now in good term with the boyfie? YES ITS TRUE, we are now in good terms. It will take us more time to get used to the "Used-to-be-US!"
Yes i am HAPPY when he's there for me and I was with him all alone together holding hands and simply enjoying our time. But sometimes i get confused with everything that had happened between us. We finally talked yesterday and he finally listened. I told him how i felt and how it affected my feelings. I was totally crushed with what he did but of corz some parts were my fault for not taking much care about him. I love him i do but i’m confused, and if u asks me now “WHY AM I CONFUSED”, i would probably answer “SERIOUSLY I DON’T KNOW and I’m the type who usually don’t have a good answer to that question”. Sigh.... I remember he was always the sweetest and most caring person i’ve met so far. He was always that romantic Casanova guy.. HEHEHE.. but then, he makes me confused and one thing that i know what i felt inside, i still have him close to my heart... loving him, care for him, missing him.. That kinda feelings but there’s something deep inside me i juz felt confused and hopeless. *ARGHHHHH!* this is very frustrating.
You may say i’m LAME and all that but I’m just like any other confuse people alive on earth. Love makes your world turn upside down juz LIKE ME! =) and yeah, I MISS HIM! Anyway, I was supposed to watch movie with cousins but I couldn’t make it due to heavy pending workload. I was working til’ 9pm just now and after that went out with Nasz & Abg Saed. We were doing some research and trying to gather our information for the upcoming presentation to the Management. GULP! Its 0200hrs rite now and I need to have my beauty sleep. Ohh weekend is in a day and i’m planning to finish drafting my work. I’ve made some progression on dealing with my work and time is very precious right now. I’m gonna be SUPER DUPER BUSY by next week onwards. Not just me, but the rest of the team that participated. Gjay will be leaving us soon coz he got an offered @ govt institution. 3 down left 6 of us in our department. I would probably request for one staff to delegate Gjay’s work. We need to speed things up and plan for next strategies to reach our targets. We for sure will be missing Gjay. He has always been our BABY BOY in the group since he is the youngest among all of us. HEY!! Hj Saed just signed in on MSN and its late.. i wonder what he is up to! Or he just arrived home? HMMPH! “Bhapa kita, chat xxx kah?” HHAHAHA JUST KIDDING! I know u will be reading my blog.. and oh yeah.. i hope what we planned for can be granted. You, me, Nasz & probably my baby might be up for that “plan”. We’ll see how... orites, toodles~ off to bed!
♥ Mellicious
11:26 PM
Sunday, June 8, 2008
When you're BORED?
I promised i'll be back roite?? Its raining now.. and i havent lay my hands on my book since err.. 4pm and now its 7:37pm. I shud be studying by now... so anyway, I didn't go anywhere but instead i'm stucked at home watching tv .. and resting for almost 4 hrs. I decided to ans these questions being tagged in my friendster. This is what i do best when i'm xtremely BORED!
1. What disappoints you the most?
* Lifeless moments.
2. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
* All around the world for 100 days.
3. What's your favorite thing to do?
* Cud have the chance to hangout & have fun til' there's no end.
4. Do you think money can buy happiness?
* It depends on
who,what,why we spend money on.
5. If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?
* To ask for another 10 wishes.
6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
* I seriously couldn't imagine life without money. I'll be dead by then.
7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
* Family.
8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
* Now here's the hardest part, honestly i'll spend on myself 1st den my family & thin of something that can double up my $$$. Donate? Mebe after i reach more than a million.
9. How do you try to impress the other gender?
* I don't actually know how to impress em' but of corz i wudn't be someone else just to impress em'.
10. Chocolates or Flowers?
* Chocolatessss!!!!!!!!!!!
11. What makes you happy?
* Having ppl around me HAPPY, I get what I want & a MAN who can mek me the most happiest girl in the world.
12. What type of person do you hate the most?-
* Two-faced & Murderer.
13. What is your ambition?
* what huh? *blank*
14. If you could have a superpower, what would it be?
* Being able to be invisible and able to fly!
15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
* To be successful and financially stable.
16. What do you do when you're alone?
* Do ANYTHING.
17. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
* Can't make a decision.
18. What music have you been listening to recently?
* Love in this club by Usher feat. Young Jeezy.
19. What is your least favourite animal?
* LIZARD CICAK LIZARD!
20. What is your ultimate addiction?
* HIM! wherever he is, i hope he'll appear anytime soon in my life.
21. At what age do you wish to marry?
* 26 above shud be fine.
22. What is your current mood?
* Feeling unwanted and lonely.
23 If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
* It depends on how we communicate.
24. What are the requirements that you wish from the other half?
* Honest, Humble, Funny, Understanding, Well-dressed, Romantic etc.
25. If you can teleport once, where would you go?
* Venice.
26. What will you be doing 10 years from now?
* Hope to be a great career woman, great wife & kids with loving most romantic Husband. HEHEHE...
♥ Mellicious
7:36 PM
Topicless
The Lil' cuties & Me
Look what i did. I got reli bored when i woke up and so i decided to get my hands on scribbling some pics. My spice girls were here when i woke up. I was awaken by their cute loud giggles all across the room. I can't bare to go back to sleep coz' i know they will keep disturbing me til' i finally wake up. Its 2 days coming for me to sit for my accounting. I haven't had any preparations but i've made several revisions.
I'm reli bored rite now and not in the mood of revising. My siblings went to Tutong Beach & I reli want to go but then this revision thingy had stopped me from going. Thats okay, i can go some other times. Abg Saed just called me up and asking for a treat. HAHAHAHA.. not at this moment bro! I'm broke and i've spent it on repairing me car. But i've no worries i've made plans on how to deal with it in the future so that i won't worry much when i need to repair my car. Its just that i'm not sure when can i start making some plans about this future planning. I think its gonna be a good idea and i might organize my financial by making earlier plans. I'm gonna list it down in my book so that i won't get broke even if i need to repair my car or any other things.
I'm craving for Dreamcones Ice-cream. I'll probably be going out for awhile just to kill boredom. I'm so bored berabiss....!! Probably wondering around the beach would be fun... I'm not sure yet. So anyway, i'll be back later. Gotta revise again.
♥ Mellicious
3:25 PM
BORING!
06062008First of all i juz wanna say,
" Happy Birthday to my frens, Salwa & Yusran"
"May Allah bless you with Happiness, Good Health & Wealth"
I know i've greeted them yesterday but i wanna wish them again. =)
I wanna thanks them for their breakfast treat. It was a very happening friday in the morning since everyone is very busy with their clients and also irritating repeating phone calls. Its not that i'm tired of answering the calls but sometimes it is juz annoying when ppl called but they don't reli know what they trying to convey. Its reli frustrating when no one helps you to answer the damn calls. FUH! Baiktah keraja operator nah... Alrite lets not emphasize much on that matter. And so, i came home early as 7pm. I had a date with ♥712. It was great meeting him again. I reli misssssssssss him so much! So anyway, we went to watch Kungfu Panda. The movie that he has been waiting eversince.
It was funny but yet not a perfect ending. What had happened to 'Tai lung'? Can anyone xplain to me? I don't reli get it. I enjoyed the movie, he enjoyed it too. It wasn't a great ending too when i sent him. I miss him & he felt the same but there's one thing i cud never understand him. I asked him whether we're thru but he kept repeating his responds by telling me that i shud change to not forget things easily. How can he expect me to change drastically? Basically it means i shud try to be somebody that i'm not & i don't want that. He expect me not to forgive things easily but HOW CAN I NOT DO THAT?! I forgive and forget easily but the wound stays forever!
I stressed out these things to my bestfriends and they don't understand it either. I really want to work things out but i juz felt he's not helping at all. He's not trying hard enuff too. He cares too much about how he feels but did he actually know how i feel?!! OMG! I'm reli 101% confused! Its very hard for me to understand him. *Sigh* Nothing much i can say about us. Everything is just falling apart. So, i ended up crying on the way home. Its stupid, I KNOW!! I reached home safe and was very tired.
070608
Had no special occasions today. Had lunch @ KFC with the guys and wandered around afta that. Went home at around 5pm and was very2 tired. Had no enuff sleep and fallen to sleep after awhile. Woke up around 7pm. Had shower at 8pm den fetched licia. Done fetching syasya, i went off to Mentiri to fetch Jessie. It was a very not-so-exciting but great nite with them. We spent most of the nite chilling at Seri Mama's restaurant. As what i've said, nothing exciting happen today. It was indeed a great nite out with the girls. Sent licia & Jessie home at around 1am. I was very tired & still feeling the vibe. I had a very dull weekend but at least my girls were there to cheer me up. I had lots to mention previously but then i juz totally blacked out & forget. Err... what was it all about anyway? Hehe.. I'm sleepy, i'm off to bed. Nitey nites.
♥ Mellicious
2:37 AM
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
Productive Tuesday, at LEAST!
I had sleepless nite and Alhamdulillah my headache was gone when i woke up in the morning. I came early to work. As usual, the 1st thing i usually switched on is my radio. YES my radio.. Hehe... den my computer den printer. I was very productive today and was busy all day. Had meeting around 11am and it lasted at 1:45pm. It was indeed an interesting meeting which i participate monthly. Presented some of my part and shared it among the members. Other departments presented their parts and it was all fantastic. We all did a great & fantastic performance last month. Despite the things that happened, we still managed to prove ourselves that we are capable of achieving our targets and for sure make ourselves happy. Good job everyone! The bosses are happy, the staffs are happy, the customers are happy (i hope so! teehee :p) & of course i think the consumers are happy too.
I haven't started my revision yet. I was just browsing thru some pages and yes my brain isn't working at all. Had lunch at Traders Inn Cafe and i had black bean chicken with rice for luncheon~ Back to office @ 3pm and was quite busy finishing some undone work. I'm still not finish with all and i'm gonna continue tomorrow. Stayed for overtime til' 8:48pm and went straight to home. I still got lots to do tomorrow. I miss PanDaQu so much. Kungfu Panda will be out on cinema on Friday and i think i don't wanna miss it. Its the closest thing that i cud ever do to cheer him up. I'm missing him terribly and I'm horified with the fact not meeting up for almost a MONTH. YESSS a month!! Over jua tu... Just because of our misunderstanding,he's reluctant to meet me. OMG!
Enuff said abt my problemo~ I'm still thinking when shud be the rite time for me to take my leave? any suggestion guys? aiyoyo.. my planned to go travel with mom and aunties were cancelled due to soem of my colleagues are already taking their leaves and I was too kind enuff to give them their chances. July would be ok? Watever. I'm bored and i came across this questionnaire. Mebe i shud give it a try to kill my boredom.
What time is it?
- 2249 hrs.
What is todays date? (MM/DD/YYYY):
- 3rd June 2008.
Who was the last person to call you baby?
- ♥712.
When you're at the grocery store do you use the price scanner?
- Nope. Only when there's no price tag but i only used it once in Hua Ho Manggis.
Do you return the cart?
-Yes of course. Now why wud i need that for?
What is your relationship status?
- Declining. *Deep Sigh*
Has anyone ever sang to you?
- Yeaps. Quite a few ppl.
Has anyone ever given you roses?
- Yeshh! It was on V.Days. A bouquet of roses from ♥712.
If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?
- I'm not sure. I gez i can if i dun give up.
Who do you text the most?
- ♥712
What does your last incoming text say?
- 'Ko tpun ku walne' from my brother, Akmal.
What does your last outgoing text say?
- I.M.Y.S.M. <3 PaNDaQu. Nite2.
What is your favorite color?
- Red
What color are your eyes?
- Black? Brown? both!
What is a compliment you receive way too often?
-You're funny and friendly, i like that.
Who was the last person to say they loved you and when?
- ♥712 err.. 3 weeks ago?
Do you like your parents?
- Why wud i not? I love them with all my heart.
Do you secretly like someone?
- Never tot of that at the mo'. Currently still in love with ♥712.
Who was the last person you said you loved on the phone?
- Again ♥712~
Which do you prefer, to eat or sleep?
- Can i say i prefer both? if i had to choose one, i'd say EAT! Sleep makes u restless.
Do you look more like your mom or your dad?
- I dunno. Mom perhaps.
How long does it take you to shower?
- It depends.
Can you do splits?
- Damn NO!
Are you flexible?
- Flexible in what way? explain puhlease~
What movie do you want to see?
- As for now, Kungfu Panda.
What did you do on New Years eve 2007?
- I can't remember.
Was your mom a cheerleader?
- Hell NO! Haha that wud be fun if she was a cheerleader.
Can you speak any other language besides English?
- Malay? Indonesia?
What is the last letter of your middle name?
- 'H'
How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
- 5 Hrs+
Do you wear your seatbelt in the car?
- Yes I do.
Are you scared of flying?
- Flying in what way? With airplanes, NO. Sky Diving, Mebe.
Is your hair curly or straight?
- Straight
Do you have any tattoos?
- I'd love to if i cud.
Do you like funny people or serious people?
- Funny wud be better.
Have you ever been to Los Angeles?
- Never.
What jewelry do you wear all the time?
- My diamond earrings.
What do you have planned for tonight?
- Revising my accounts.
What is your favorite song at the moment?
- Love in the club by Usher.
What song do you HATE?
- Erm.. can't think of any.
Do you like chocolate?
- I love chocolate!!!!!
Do you need a girlfriend/boyfriend to be happy?
- Not necessarily but having a boyfriend wud be a Bonus.
Are you easy to get along with?
- It depends on how i interact with diff ppl around.
What is your favorite time of day?
- Night to Dawn.
Are you a happy person?
- Very much Happy.
Any upcoming events you're excited about?
- Our big upcoming agenda sometime in August.
♥ Mellicious
9:57 PM
Layout changed.
:) I've changed my layout and i like it. Its simple but pretty. I've made some changes and it took me 45mins to get it all right at its place. It was on error mode when i first uploaded it and i was scared i might lose everything. Lucky for me i got it back right on track and i didn't lose any single area. OK.. lets start with my day by telling you guys as usual my daily worklife. Been busy and tired+layzee! Despite the non-stop clients, i was still layzee to continue my work. I was very sleepy most of the time and mebe that made me became layzee to do some work.
Everyday is a busy day especially when its after payday and there are still lots of people busy with car repayments, roadtax renewal, insurance renewal, applying new financing, open up new savings a/c etc. Basically everything and everyday i can see there's quite a lot no. of people came by! Fuhh~ so xhausted. I bet the operations department had a pretty hectic day since payday whereby us, recovery departments are only entertaining overdue customers. BORING! Oh yeah.. had lunch at Nurizna and i'm getting bored with the same place most of the time but hey... i've no choice.. its the closest and nice environment restaurant nearby. I know i can still eat elsewhere but still.... i have to drive which tells me 'NO! I'm just too lazy to drive!'. Haha..
Erm.. went to Mall after work and nothing exciting. I was having this minor headache so i was not reli in the mood for some fun. I'm still feeling the itch rite now, OUCHIE! I was too tired just now. After bath, i've fallen to sleep while onlining and just woke up around 10! and I'm feeling very layzee, hurt, annoyed with these HEADACHE!! It's nearly 2a.m. and i shud already be sleeping by now. I'm having sleeping problem again. Ok skip that! I went browsing after i woke up and i came across few online shopping which actually owned by Bruneians. I was pretty amazed with the clothings, products, shoes, handbags etc. that they are selling. I didn't know we actually have online shopping for clothes, products etc. The only thing i know is qqestore.com. Hehehe... I'm not update to this online shopping. I gez it'll be easier for my friends and i to check out new fashion clothings and the fun part is, we can pre-order online. Isn't that great? Aii.. sakai aku ah. Hehe.. Oh yeah, i've linked them! So, if you girls love FASHION so much, feel free to browse their page. For now, I'm off to bed. Still feeling grumpy... HEADACHE ATTACKED! :(
p.s. missing you ♥PanDaQu very MUCH!!!
♥ Mellicious
1:32 AM
Monday, June 2, 2008
About life
Cancelled again? Aiyooo...
The planned to have ambuyat gathering at Saed's place was cancelled. None of em' that planned for ambuyat session this weekend came or even texted Hj Saed. I supposed G Du & G Amir texted G saed that they couldn't come. How about the rest?! Aiyo! What a BORING companion and none even decide for an alternative idea after cancelling the date for ambuyat. I was very much looking forward for this ambuyat gathering. Never had ambuyat gathering at Saed's place. Usually we went for BBQ and Karaoke-ing at his place. Woke up around 10am & was bored the whole morning. G Saed texted me regarding the cancellation and THAT even made the day even worse. I went online almost 3 hrs just simply editting some pix instead of getting my eyes on accounting papers. HAIYO!
After Maghrib, i went to CAM restaurant to meet up with G Saed & Ahmin. We had our usual hangout but this time i couldn't stay til' late. I miss my boyfriend so much. I reli2 do. So anyway, KUNGFU PANDA movie will be out on the 6th June 2008. I decided to book it earlier so i won't miss the premier. Its my only chance to make him feel better. I know he's been waiting for this movie and i know he love this movie. It's been awhile since we last watched movie together. I miss him dearly. Oh yeah.. I dunno what has happened to me but i juz felt like something missing in my life and I couldn't even figure wat was it all about. Some say.. i probably miss my teenagehood, some say.. i rarely enjoy myself, some say.. i'm too workaholic. But.. its definitely true, i'm missing all that. Being workaholic is not what i was forced to do. Its the natural behaviour that i have in me which meks me a workaholic person. Sometimes i can be lazy just like any other people but if i don't work, i can feel numb and bored not doing anything useful. Holidays once in awhile is a MUST of course. It helps me loose things around and just relaxing all day long.
I tend to think that life is too short and i need to live my life to the fullest. I seriously do not have any idea what i reli want to do in life. All i want is to be successful but in what way?? i've no idea. Life's tough as i go along with this life and everyday is not like any other day. I used to say my days are just like any other days but wat i reli meant was 'NOTHING TO DO'. That was the only time where i seriously have nothing exciting to do. I have been telling my younger siblings how much they need to enjoy their life while they are still schooling. They reli need to study hard and smart to achieve their ambitions. I do not get tired telling them everyday (if i shud) about life. I have been living for 22 years and its true life is not as easy as we can see in a movie or wherever. They are certain time where we can reli relax & enjoy ourselves but in the end of the day, life is just like waves... ups and downs. =)
Its nearly 1am and its gonna be a boring MONDAY as usual. I hope i'll enjoy my work tomorrow. I still have no idea wats coming and wats new. *Yawning* sleepy.. -_- gotta chow. Continue tomorrow... nitey nite.
♥ Mellicious
12:30 AM
Sunday, June 1, 2008
Weekend, NUMB.
Its exactly 3am... and my eyes are still very wide open. I tried to make myself sleep but it just can't. I've lied down for almost 20mins and shut my eyes.. but still i can't sleep. So i decided to update my blog or perhaps change my layout but for now lemme update my blog first. I easily get bored with the layout i'm using so i decided to change but i duno which layout suit my mood and eyes. I was so bored and i spent my time editting some pictures.
How did i spend my weekend?
I spent my weekend by waking up late... took a bath reli late.. had late improper lunch.. off to workshop and changed tyre late too... basically everything abt my weekend was 'LATE'. And even now.. i sleep LATE! see... all are related. I'm sure you guys can know how lazy i was. Went to granny's house in the evening and den off to Bebeland. Took Baby Wanie for shopping and we ended up buying Barbie's night dress & shoe. Was supposed to have barbecue at Saed's place but it was cancelled. Since the plan were cancelled, i decided to watch movie instead. I went watching a malay movie ' Apa Kata Hati'. Not so bad.. and it was hilarious seeing Awie acting as faggot fashion designer. All in all, i give the movie a good job done. Thumbs up! My accounting exam is around the corner and i haven't even started anything.
My last week spent was boring, nothing exciting. I spent my weekend on everything simple. I didn't have any dates or plans and i ended up watching movie. I'm bored, TOTALLY! and i'm getting sleepy... Oh anyway, i have plans for tomorrow as in LATER. Probably will have study group session with Khai and will be having ambuyat at G Saed's place. I'm still not sure what to bring.. pucuk ubi ok? sup udang? errr.. sambal ulam? Hehehe.. no idea. Hmmph... oh alrite its getting late and i need my beauty sleep. I cancelled my plans to go travel this June'08 due to i've changed my mind. I'm gonna decide some other time when will be the right time to take my long leave.
I'll just continue tomorrow... i'm so sleepy. Chow.
♥ Mellicious
3:00 AM
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