Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Getting old, Getting Bored.

Watery eyes. Running Nose. Warmth Body. Mild Fever. ARGGHH!

Its getting into me all over again. I might say my anti-body is not reacting strictly with fever viruses surrounding me. Aduii.. I am in the condition wanting to have the perfect body temperature 37 degrees celsius. For not being cared the past three days, i finally met the boyfriend and we had a great conversation. I've been missing him terribly and we just met yesterday after few days no sms, no calls or even MISS calls. *Sigh* But he had his reason which i believed and sincerely accepted his deepest apologies. And for now, i understand that sometimes we do need our time alone to ease our minds. The pressure and the commitment that he have to deal with has been making him feel stressed up and of course, frustrated!

I respect his decision for not wanting me to be apart of his frustration. He doesn't want to make me feel frustrated too and yeah, worried. I somehow worried of course but after he explained, i understood and believed in him. Anyway, it comes up to my sense that i need holidayssssssssss. Mom talked to me this morning and offered me to go travel with her sometimes in April or May. YES YES i want! It's been awhile since i last traveled. Duh~ Singapore was the last pit stop but still, it was only a short notice and i want more. I can't get enough of it... Licia texted me up and i bet that girl is really having a hard time with her full commitment towards her work. That girl for sure is worse than me. She's a teacher and she's taking part time teaching @ tuition institution. She works daily 7 days a week. Her days are fully occupied with work and she seldom have much time for herself to enjoy. Yeah of course she does have that time out for some reasons but seriously, on sunday her classes start as early as 8am and will all be done by 5pm. Tell me about it.. am i better or not? I even have my Sunday just for myself and i seldom go to work on Sunday. Sian...

Online is what i do best when i'm at home to kill my boredom or sometimes i watched tv til' i fall to sleep or sometimes i call up the boyfriend or sometimes i just sit and think 'WAT TO DO AH'. Rite... u people might think i have other better things to do then killing time going online. Whatever.. I do have chores to do sometimes but only when i needed to. I miss attending classes and mingled with the classmates. I miss the moments when the classmates and i laughed to our lecture silly jokes. Basically, it all means i miss going to school. I miss studying. I want to study and work at the same time. I want to spend my time doing anything useful, meaningful and fun. Hanging is fun but there are times when we just don't know where to go or chill. Sometimes we don't know what to say coz' the stories are just the same all and all over again. Sometimes we don't know when we needed to get out of the box and plan things that will come ahead. Sometimes we really don't know WHATS COMING TOMORROW!

Damn. Should i stop before i get too emotional? Entah eh. Eyh, i seldom chat on MSN except to the ones i normally crapped with. This is getting old and i'm getting bored. I need a LIFE and i need MONEY for the sake of fulfilling the dreams, the desire, the everything i've ever wanted in life. Well, in that case i can continue dreaming and struggle with life for the better future. Money can't buy me love but with money, almost everything naturally be loved. Duncha agree with me guys? Dun deny it. One thing money can't buy, IMAN. and... you know it takes awhile and InsyaAllah with god's willing, i'll fulfill my obligations as a Muslim. Amin... =)