Thursday, May 22, 2008

Moments of Missing Pieces.

I've changed my layout again. I got bored with the previous layout. Hehehe... I know the blog space is a bit narrow but i like it. It's simple and i called it 'shabby chic' lol. Lame! Talking abt Shabby Chic, I went there few times before and i've alwez like all the art stuffs and stickers. BEAUTIFULL! But... i dunno how to make something 'artful' erks.. is there such words? Haha who cares. Whenever i passed by, i alwez like to see the picture frame designed by Shabby Chic, the birthday invitation, the small poster.. pokoknya.. alllll cantikk banget!!!

Owh, I was browsing to my all blog in multiply.com and how much i was left with memories all those years when i was in Brisbane. How bad i want to be there and meet up with my ex-college mates. How bad i reli wanted to spend my time just enjoying life to the fullest. How bad i want to be in Brisbane to study and enjoying at the same time. How bad i miss my old apartment, my housemate, the place, the people, the beach etc. Everything it says just makes me keep missing Brisbane so much. Its not all about the country but its all abt the memories i had back in 2004. It was i bet the most great experienced living alone not knowing anyone when i first arrived. I was totally lost and alone when i first came to College. I didn't know anyone and lucky i met my sister's friend. He showed me the way to the admin office and there i was sitting all alone waiting to be entertained. I remember i was old-fashioned with the clothes i wore on my 1st day. A guy approached me and asked me which class i'll be in. I gave him my schedule and i was lucky enuff that we went to the same class. I was very happy coz' we came from the same country and he's the only person i can count on at that moment.

I'm gonna share with u guys a bit of my experienced when i first start college. SO anyhow, met my new classmates and most of em' came from different countries around the world. We introduced ourselves and get to know along the way. My brunei fella, Yazid was the one i usually turned to with trouble from understanding my studies. He was very helpful and kind enuff to share. Then, i became close with Sheena and the rest. We used to hangout alot after class and also in the cafeteria. I had many wonderful memories that i will alwez remember. Its just too many for me to share my experienced. I had a very wonderful beautiful housemates feeza during my 2nd semester. I was alwez homesick and had rough long distance r'ship with my exbf. We didn't last long but i'm glad we're still in good terms til' now. We became good friends and move on with our life. I didn't continue my studies up til' Degree and am now working for 2 years. I left a lot of memories behind but it will never be erased from my mind.

I still keep intouch with my friends tho' and I reli miss them so much. Some even still remember our most funny moments and kept reminding me abt those moments when i met them online. Its been 3 years and i'm moving on with my new life but memories stays with me forever. How much i wish i could turn back time but i know its impossible. Its just so wonderful when we could have fun even wen we're working but i tell u... it won't be as fun as when we were still schooling. I had 6 wonderful bestfrens since highschool and Alhamdulillah we're still together up til' now. One is already married and the rest still waiting including me. Hehe.. i wonder who will get married next? YadaYada.. HAHAHA.

There's just tooo much memories i left behind.... How i wish i could capture every moment but i kept it safe in my mind.. Hehehe... This feelings comes every once in a blue moon. Only tonite i feel i'm just missing all the fun i had. Its been awhile since i last enjoy myself... i meant reli2 enjoying. I gez this work is just delaying me from having super super fun! Hmmph.. i dunno if i reli have enjoyments thru out my working life. Well i'm not saying there's no fun at all but i juz dunno what is 'FUN' thru out my time working. I gez i was just very hardworking for these 2 years. As far as i remember the only time i had fun was when i took the 3 days opportunity to Singapore and the rest, i dun reli remember. Having fun with Syg was another different thing. I dun call it fun but i consider it as 'moments with him'. I had several moments with him that i enjoyed and sometimes dull. Dull was the only time when we argued and fought over small things and the rest was just fine. I'm not sure what i'm feeling rite now.. I'm just missing everything missing in my life. *Sigh* But..... No worries..... I know i can cope with life, every obstacles & accepting the fact that life is never easy!

WOAH! It's nearly 2am now.. and i'm dozing off soon. To all my friends who are reading my blog i just wanna say... "I MISS U GUYS SO MUCH". I miss everything i had in my life.. those memories i kept close to my heart and permanently stays in my mind. Being lonely without the presence of my Baby, i just think i will keep missing almost everyone i cherished in life. Without the presence of him taking care of me and to be there when i needed him is juz making me feel unwanted. Without the presence of his beautiful text every single day just meks me feel deeply crushed. I think apart from missing my life, i know i miss him terribly. I gotta end this here for today and sleep. Nite2 people, i love u whoever u are. (with an option tho') LOL, silly me!