Monday, June 2, 2008

About life

Cancelled again? Aiyooo...

The planned to have ambuyat gathering at Saed's place was cancelled. None of em' that planned for ambuyat session this weekend came or even texted Hj Saed. I supposed G Du & G Amir texted G saed that they couldn't come. How about the rest?! Aiyo! What a BORING companion and none even decide for an alternative idea after cancelling the date for ambuyat. I was very much looking forward for this ambuyat gathering. Never had ambuyat gathering at Saed's place. Usually we went for BBQ and Karaoke-ing at his place. Woke up around 10am & was bored the whole morning. G Saed texted me regarding the cancellation and THAT even made the day even worse. I went online almost 3 hrs just simply editting some pix instead of getting my eyes on accounting papers. HAIYO!

After Maghrib, i went to CAM restaurant to meet up with G Saed & Ahmin. We had our usual hangout but this time i couldn't stay til' late. I miss my boyfriend so much. I reli2 do. So anyway, KUNGFU PANDA movie will be out on the 6th June 2008. I decided to book it earlier so i won't miss the premier. Its my only chance to make him feel better. I know he's been waiting for this movie and i know he love this movie. It's been awhile since we last watched movie together. I miss him dearly. Oh yeah.. I dunno what has happened to me but i juz felt like something missing in my life and I couldn't even figure wat was it all about. Some say.. i probably miss my teenagehood, some say.. i rarely enjoy myself, some say.. i'm too workaholic. But.. its definitely true, i'm missing all that. Being workaholic is not what i was forced to do. Its the natural behaviour that i have in me which meks me a workaholic person. Sometimes i can be lazy just like any other people but if i don't work, i can feel numb and bored not doing anything useful. Holidays once in awhile is a MUST of course. It helps me loose things around and just relaxing all day long.

I tend to think that life is too short and i need to live my life to the fullest. I seriously do not have any idea what i reli want to do in life. All i want is to be successful but in what way?? i've no idea. Life's tough as i go along with this life and everyday is not like any other day. I used to say my days are just like any other days but wat i reli meant was 'NOTHING TO DO'. That was the only time where i seriously have nothing exciting to do. I have been telling my younger siblings how much they need to enjoy their life while they are still schooling. They reli need to study hard and smart to achieve their ambitions. I do not get tired telling them everyday (if i shud) about life. I have been living for 22 years and its true life is not as easy as we can see in a movie or wherever. They are certain time where we can reli relax & enjoy ourselves but in the end of the day, life is just like waves... ups and downs. =)

Its nearly 1am and its gonna be a boring MONDAY as usual. I hope i'll enjoy my work tomorrow. I still have no idea wats coming and wats new. *Yawning* sleepy.. -_- gotta chow. Continue tomorrow... nitey nite.